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On today’s episode of “my mother makes me feel like a worthless parent”


I told her that in the beginning of may, I was going to watch a friend’s daughters for 4 days while she was out of town for her job. And she looks at me, “you’re not taking sterling are you?”

And why the fuck would I not?

Apparently because “I can’t wake up when he cries”


Which is moronic. He’s 2. TWO. FUCKING TWO YEARS OLD. and because of current sleeping situations (where he sleeps next to my mom in her room and not in the crib in my room, again because I “can’t wake up when he cries”) he wakes up 4-5 times a night. I know he cries/wakes up that often because I have a terrible habit of staying up till 3-4am diddling on my phone. But whenever Danny, Sterling, and I go someplace or stay at a hotel, I have absolutely NO PROBLEM getting him to stay asleep at night.

Like Saturday night. We stayed at a hotel to celebrate my birthday and he woke up very briefly ONCE, and he went back to sleep super quick after cuddling with him for a few mins. Then he slept the next EIGHT hours STRAIGHT. 8!


So I looked at her and told her I absolutely would be taking sterling with me. It gives me a chance to get out of this god awful fuckin house and actually BREATHE


goodness knows I feel like I’m suffocating in this perpetual 78°f, 50% humid house


I know she thinks I’m a terrible mom, but Jesus, I wish she would make it less obvious about what she thinks


Don’t even get me started on how I had to force her to stop giving him bottles of milk at night less than a month ago.

Like lady, if you want another kid to fuck up like the first 4 you have, adopt or get your old ass pregnant or something.

I hate the double standard of if you have a different point of view from your parents and stand up for your opinion, it’s “disrespect and out of place”


But if it’s the other way around. It’s “being a parent”

How to tell my mother that she’s overstepping her boundaries without fucking myself over

Every day she makes me feel like I am the most incompetent parent that has walked the face of the earth.

I’m not raising my son how I want to, and because I’m living in her house, I must do things the way she did when she raised my siblings and I.

I don’t have learning moments where I figure out what I need to do and how I should go about doing it. If I “do something wrong” she swoops in and “corrects” how it should be done


I’m tired of feeling like anything I do or not do could get me kicked out. I can’t cope with my feelings properly and I’m been regressing back into depressive habits.


I just want to save enough money so I can move out and it just be my smol family, away from my mom

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