On today’s episode of “my mother makes me feel like a worthless parent”
I told her that in the beginning of may, I was going to watch a friend’s daughters for 4 days while she was out of town for her job. And she looks at me, “you’re not taking sterling are you?”
And why the fuck would I not?
Apparently because “I can’t wake up when he cries”
Which is moronic. He’s 2. TWO. FUCKING TWO YEARS OLD. and because of current sleeping situations (where he sleeps next to my mom in her room and not in the crib in my room, again because I “can’t wake up when he cries”) he wakes up 4-5 times a night. I know he cries/wakes up that often because I have a terrible habit of staying up till 3-4am diddling on my phone. But whenever Danny, Sterling, and I go someplace or stay at a hotel, I have absolutely NO PROBLEM getting him to stay asleep at night.
Like Saturday night. We stayed at a hotel to celebrate my birthday and he woke up very briefly ONCE, and he went back to sleep super quick after cuddling with him for a few mins. Then he slept the next EIGHT hours STRAIGHT. 8!
So I looked at her and told her I absolutely would be taking sterling with me. It gives me a chance to get out of this god awful fuckin house and actually BREATHE
goodness knows I feel like I’m suffocating in this perpetual 78°f, 50% humid house
I know she thinks I’m a terrible mom, but Jesus, I wish she would make it less obvious about what she thinks
Don’t even get me started on how I had to force her to stop giving him bottles of milk at night less than a month ago.
Like lady, if you want another kid to fuck up like the first 4 you have, adopt or get your old ass pregnant or something.

